Mental Relief

I'm tired of darkness So I been searching for better days I guess I'm growing I'm starting to learn some better ways I've been relentless And passionate And I'll never change Jack of trades I'm king Lets call a spade a spade I know they probably thinking like is he still rapping And then they hear how I spit it And say he still snapping Thats when they be like he nice But can it still happen That's when I see my reflection And say it will happen A few minor set backs For the come back Sticking to the plan I've created Like Ima thumbtack Long hours wit the work Prolly should pack a lunch bag Sometimes when life knock you down Don't just get up Nigga punch back You got to be ya best version of self And lately I've been having a different urge For the wealth I'm bigger on energy Swerving you not a friend to me Then be mad when I curve But deserve the shit that you felt I I know You been through a lot But I don't Know Why You won't Try to understand what I'm on See I been through way too much Way too much And I got shit on my mind Baby I do not have No time To play Hmmm Trying to leave the past in the past Exes hit my line but I say I'm good and I pass How can I move forward If constantly looking back And the pain that I always mask I revisit after we smash Them shoulda coulda woulda Never woulda made a difference Coulda kept it sexual Without the same commitment But even that can be risky When emotions involved Fucking each other And someone else can cause some resentment Moving on to bigger and better things Travel tropical climates And places I've never seen I escape in these women Surrounded by foreign tings While still feeling alone as if I was quarantined This day and age Folks rarely do what they pose to do The women play like Niggaz And Niggaz get too emotional Claim they wanna see you win But got visions for both of you So if you get to far There's limits on how far they'll go for you I I know You been through a lot But I don't Know Why You won't Try to understand what I'm on See I been through way too much Way too much And I got shit on my mind Baby I do not have No time To play Hmmm