The Calm.

I still envision A better life with no penny pinching It's really sickening I've trusted people with ill intentions Social media Have you thinking that losers winning False validation Know how to fake it wit many mentions But still I listen Treating the booth like it's my kitchen My pen is mightier than the sword Feel like I'm fencing My haters wishing I would lose to the competition They pessimistic My presence got them so apprehensive The moves I'm making I make them ever so graceful Food for thought They emotional Then become so distasteful Playing wit ya emotions It's not the time to be playful But money don't ever change It's the only thing that is faithful Sometimes I sit and reminisce About the better times Searching for some peace That I don't think that I will ever find Contemplate bout talking bout it Then I be like never mind Say you understand this pain I speak I think Rosetta lying Ironically When my brother died I felt dead inside Was hard to keep myself together And fighting tryna calm my mind Life's to short is what they say And we don't know when it's our time But knowing he's at peace The only thing that gives me piece of mind It's weighing heavy Like I need to lose some calories Sometimes I feel like I be in a alternate reality People where I'm from Don't really care about mortality Until it's time to face the reaper From being a casualty Things change when you live in purpose It's a war in the streets But we don't get thanked does our service I had to make it out alive I don't claim to be perfect But see you niggaz be acting Yo whole persona rehearsed and I know But I guess that come wit the territory Lived a couple Halloween's I can tell you scary stories What you know bout facing 20 While fighting for custody Hustle and praying Thanking God everyday That he didn't ignore me Still tryna get my situation situated Stay away from people Who get situations escalated Maximize reward and tryna minimize The risk we taking Step outside yo element Or risk facing elimination I'm incredible But you not even credible If it ain't bout money I can't put it on my schedule Some women will bury you But some women will care for you But what's the difference Between who pretending And who's there for you You ain't her only fan Nigga she got only fans Why you tryna hold her hand You think you her only man All we get is one life Listen this yo only chance Gotta pay attention to the signs Or you'll be lonely man And ladies listen Some Niggaz be on that bs But just like us Yal selection rarely be the best Pay attention to the signs you can tell And stop blaming others for you creating Your own hell