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Waking up, don't understand the point of this thing called living The world is sinful and feeling is sickening It takes everything I have, and I'm just supposed keep giving? Frankly I'm fed up and livid, because this life unforgiving I would ask for help but pride tells me to keep it all in That's what you taught when you wearing my skin Normalize and bottle the the trauma that we are akin I don't think we realize we both mentally and physically trapped in Save that for later, I don't think they hear me Let's talk about drugs I'm abusing, maybe then they'll all feel me Think I'm digressing, off this cess, it's ironic I guess That when I'm in hell's the only time I'm feeling less stressed Swimming in this liquor till we faded Don't pass me the white you know I hate it Roll another spliff let's keep on blazing Spark it till we higher than a space ship Got me feeling good, this is amazing Want to feel this all the time not on occasion Take the edge off of this pain and affliction Got it all under control I ain't addicted My depression (Don't want to heal it) My anxiety (Don't want to feel it) But what goes up always comes down and you'll be shook Fell in love with finding ways to feel like I'm off hook Until it all had caught up and my life was almost took Had it all under control, till that edible had tripping One night, one life, could've been gone in an instant Sometimes I feel should have and it's been hard to admit it Instead of quit it, sparked another blunt to try to deal with it We all learning to deal with pain and nobody's above the hurting I ain't saying that it's all bad; except when we lose our purpose How many people lost, with pain under the surface? Sometimes substances help but in end is it worth it? Swimming in this liquor till we faded Don't pass me the white you know I hate it Roll another spliff let's keep on blazing Spark it till we higher than a space ship Got me feeling good, this is amazing Want to feel this all the time not on occasion Take the edge off of this pain and affliction Maybe I really am addicted