Hope.less (Depression) Trigger Warning

Don't tell me I'm ok you'll never know my pain I live in constant agony cuz every days the same Death is an escape I try to find my way But there's always someone there to block the gate I don't wanna leave this room I don't wanna leave this head I'm stuck where I am I've tried everything The world I know is fake my eyes are faded grey Why was I put here if I just want to decay Let me fly away please just let me leave this place I'm sick of child's play I'm sick sounding so cliché The therapy has failed and the drugs are going stale when will you see your life is just a fairy tale Please just give up there is nothing that will help there's nothing I hate more in this world than myself I'm a burden to myself a burden to my friends a burden to family they're better off without me I try every day to put on a face but I'm losing motivation I just need some liberation The voices in my head will whisper me to death as I slowly slip away to a permanent vacation Another lost cause, another brain with flaws might as well give up there's no need an applause Wait what's this a wave of confidence maybe I'll survive if I give it one last try No I can't I'm simply hopeless The stars will begin to fade as I dig my own grave Don't say we're close cuz I lost all hope Sometimes it's time to give up instead of trying to cover up The pain inside I lost the fight Everything is numb I never see the sun No matter what I do I'll never be someone My time is running out expiration over due Don't try to change my mind because I am done and that's the truth Please sound the alarm I resort to self harm Watch me try and cover up all the scars on my arm Run away in fear you won't get far my dear Hate to break it to ya but we all disappear No one wants me around because I always bring them down My biggest mistake was to think I could be saved I look in the mirror and see nothing but fear from the thoughts in my head I know they want me dead The stars will begin to fade as I dig my own grave Don't say we're close cuz I lost all hope Sometimes it's time to give up instead of trying to cover up The pain inside I lost the fight There's nothing left in this world for me I slam the door and lock the key I grab the rope that'll hold my weight I tie the knot that'll seal my fate No one would notice if I died I open the closet and crawl inside Don't think that you can set me straight I take my final leap of faith The rope is tight I squirm in fright My breathing stops exit daylight Someone will finally see my pain but by then it will be too late The stars will begin to fade as I dig my own grave Don't say we're close cuz I lost all hope Sometimes it's time to give up instead of trying to cover up The pain inside I lost the fight The stars will begin to fade as I dig my own grave Don't say we're close cuz I lost all hope Sometimes it's time to give up instead of trying to cover up The pain inside I lost the fight