FOG

God told me if it's heavy on my heart then let it go Always tell my fam I love them thinking I should let them know Just so when I reach the top I always remember the floor Even when I'm at the bottom I remember Hell below Well at least that's what I'm told, at least that's what I believe People dead at 21, Jesus died at 33 Who am I to sit and grieve? Who am I to wimp and weep? When a mother miss her son, and a father miss his niece When a cousin miss a brother, when a friend miss a friend Who am I to pick a side, when I'm really looking in From the outside box, he got down time locked Up, in a prison cell ain't been outside once Now he can't see his child, now he can't raise his kid And the lawyers take the rest, while he's laying in the bed Made of metal on a cot, why it's raining heavy tears? He been missing birthdays, he been waiting to appear To the judge, saying "Judge And I mean it so sincerely I'm not the only one that's coming here so know me clearly I'm trapped inside this box and now my teeny brother need me On the outside, I'm losing all the dear and closest near me Remember I'm a human first, know me for my human worth This my life or death but yeah I know for you it's you at work" Knocking on her gavel it's the battle with the plaintiff Murders happen constantly they're laughing while I'm praying Another kid I went to middle school with, lying in a hearse Know his momma didn't see this for him, smiling at his birth Know his pastor didn't see this for him, choir in the church Sing about him so his spirit's never dying in a verse But no I understand your frustration and paranoia But this can happen from Turner Station up to Sequoia The people in their houses been waiting, think it's annoying But the government is watching the places we've been avoiding I'm tired of seeing friends I grew up with, on Murder Ink Baltimore, the Instagram page, pass it through word or link Thinking of the khaki pants and blue tops Dress shoes, maroon ties "Justice Under God" but it was too hot Back when only blood from our arms, came from a flu shot Back when they were bumping Lor Scoota, he was the new guy Back when Cole had dropped False Prophets, knowing his idol lies (idolize) Deep within his emotions, what a forgotten time But back then, I had something happen to change youth See two days after graduating that same school I was outside my Aunt's, in Grade 8 dude I saw somebody had cocked it and tried to aim, "BOOM" 4 shots ring, now I'm ducking off and running I was playing soccer tag, with my brother and my cousin But we saw the block was hot, yeah we heard the bullets bussin' Hit my head when running in, keep my life for a concussion It's seeming like they're keeping a piece, to go to war While disintegrating the peace, that's in the home If I had a lever to stop it all, I would pull it too Why are all these tough conversations, never been bulletproof? It's been a lot of loss on all sides dog It's gon' take more, than a song to write all my wrongs But understand I'm far from perfect, knowing that my flaws are working To make me to a better man, Lord knows for certain Keep guiding me Keep guiding me Why I always keep God with me Keep guiding me Keep guiding me This just a long game of hide and seek Keep guiding me Keep guiding me Why I always keep God with me Keep guiding me Keep guiding me We just gotta give it time and see