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Still empty pockets And empty hearted Now I can't lie its been hard to continue what you started You told me all of our losses are just a lesson But what good is all these blessings If all we left with is an empty garden Can a flower bloom in the midst of darkness Calling out to you for the truth in all this I'd be the first to admit that I'm far from flawless If god is really an artist Then why the f*ck he erase his drawings That's just anger pain and resentment talking I lost my faith when I seen you laying inside that coffin Shit I still ain't took the time to cry about it I'm bad with showing emotion had to survive without it Swear Although my vision getting cloudy I just hope that I ain't overstep my boundaries I ain't want no one around me Since you passed away Hard to accept the fact you were snatched away Not even covid could help me mask the pain And smoking couldn't do it either It's like each puff that I took Would take all the feelings deeper I tried to drown it out with liquor but I ain't a drinker Being undervalued has always made me an over thinker I'm partially jealous because heaven gets to keep ya And the kids I have will never get to meet ya You the one that shaped my features And you taught me wrong from right I wish that I could thank you For the times you saved my life I think about you every night Yeah