I CANNOT LIE TO HIM

I been a little behind But give me some time And Imma be right again I had to sit on the side And look in my mind And realize that I pretend Everything happened in line And Imma be fine But something that I forget I can tell so many lies But look in the mirror No I cannot lie to him Breaking me down to the bone I'm losing control I just wanna find the truth When everything feel like a storm You just see the rain When light still be shining through I don't know where I can go When everyone know And can't even hide the proof Don't matter if we getting close 'Cause everyone show That they can still lie to you Really don't know where to go from here What do I do when it don't appear What do I say when I look at myself And I know him but don't wanna show 'em here That feeling it keep getting closer and I want some closure But I know it's over here I know when I get to my lowest I see I'm a poser Act like I don't notice here Cuz I know I'm not what they wanted If they need something done then you know I'm on it But this feeling I got been here for the longest I can say that I'm strong but I'm not the strongest It keep telling me who I am don't belong and It keep saying I know I'm not being honest I keep praying the voices would all be gone and Everyone of my choices didn't feel so wrong and Everything that I doing didn't make 'em leave me I be saying it's true but they can't believe me I been left here to choose who would really need me I don got so confused that I think I'm dreaming I let myself get clueless and now I'm bleeding There can't be no excuse about how I'm treated Man the man in the mirror 'gon have a meaning Gotta look a lil clearer to find the reason Gotta look a lil Breaking me down to the bone I'm losing control I just wanna find the truth When everything feel like a storm You just see the rain When light still be shining through I don't know where I can go When everyone know And can't even hide the proof Don't matter if we getting close 'Cause everyone show That they can still lie to you I been a little behind But Give me some time And Imma be right again I had to sit on the side And look in my mind And realize that I pretend Everything happened in line And Imma be fine But something that I forget I can tell so many lies But look in the mirror No I cannot lie to him