Here without you

I know we ain't speak no more But I still think bout you and what you wore We was always fighting like we was in a war So much pain n tears always popping pills like a drug store N I know I broke your heart I took off so fast n I had to depart I hated myself I just fell apart Didn't realize that I had a sweetheart Lost you so fast I just want a restart Now it's to late cause you had a jumpstart Stayin' out late break in other niggas hearts While I'm up late looking at all these charts thinking to myself if I'll ever be on these Charts Writing in this note pad looking back on life and what we used to have Thought I lost it all Errything came to me like a curveball Drinkin up my tears with the fireball Tryna see my life here without you Knew you wouldn't pick up my phone call Then I realized it was for the long haul Now I'm doing better staying sober no more alcohol Writing music making important phone calls Staying up late no more mr downfall Everything up till we get that phone call No more sleeping in cause we busy playing ball With my boys hitting up all the shopping malls Back then we never had the money fall Now we drowning in it like a waterfall Thinking to myself how we got this far I know how it feels to be the shortest one Told you I would be something tho Woulda been nice if you stuck by my side Now I have a hard time finding my ride or die Like they say it's how it goes When you up they wanna be there for the gold but when you down they'll just turn their back n fold It's okay cause I don't need any hoes One day imma find a good soul Needa cleanse mine before I get to old Had a rough past it's why I'm always cold It's okay tho cause I know god knows Pray to him every night to show me the light Even if it's dark I know he by my side Momma always has my back she my ride or die Told her if I die imma make sure she live a good life Always by her side protect her with my life Make sure she knows I'll never leave her side Even at a loss if it cost me my life Angel by her side forever end in sight