Catastrophe

Living on earth, try playin for keeps, moments coming in spurts I wasn't prepared, deserted roads and bags of dirt I pray daily my methods will work Searching for truth, what good's The Fountain of Youth if you can't step in it first? I'm too filled up with flaws, listen revealing em all I keep my distance can't get close got my back to the wall I stand tall but I'm fallible I'm bound to be wrong I speak carefully now, know the power of tongue I'm still one of one, no second chance, it's one and done The year of the rabbit I think I got more than I wanted from Never envious, but the success I seen I wanted some I'm worrisome, but try not to worry none cause God get it done Odds slim to none of my passion lackin, I'm mentally trashing Tryna bring the cash in, but other things I want to be done God don't make mistakes, but I do, I'm almost ready to run I can't do this by myself My flaws lie in the logic I never needed no help And all that I was doing was righteously in the mind itself The doctor said I need some sun for physical and mental health My excitement is killed daily Not a soul that can save me The truth has come from within I listen to myself I can't make those mistakes again Wonder when it'll end Have I lost the chance to expend my amenities yet again? Momentum killer, did it to myself, I'm self-loathing again I'm yet to live, but I've lived to see some casualties All the things I boasted clapping back at me, laughingly Humbled drastically, but ain't no shame in me I'm actually actively still waiting for a miracle to pass to me Catastrophe Stuck in the middle of I don't need nobody and who gon blast for me Questioning if I met expectations that was asked of me