Madness & beauty (feat. angel)

I can't seem to find the love That I find in you Finding my struggles that you claimed about are true Madness and beauty That changed Your point of view All of the lies and all the fights that I never knew I'm tryna explain all of this pain, Finding the words that are deep in my soul It's like I am there but he's taking control He's back in my Brian likes he's done it before Can't Even Lie I'm smoking these blunts till the day that I die I'm going so hard and I don't even try Momma I'm sorry if I'm I dying tonight Look I've been lost in this world Lost up in this life I've been tryna find a cure or maybe another wife Yea I've going really hard but I'm still counting all my shit Yea I've going down a road but you will always see me win Count up a bag first of all Before I give my love again Love the support that I get I know I'm a mess I've Been tryna find ways To release all this pain But you when call up my phone Baby the love comes again The love comes again It comes like virus just within my skin Rushing through veins and injecting my brain I'm getting so high that I can't even think I can't seem to find the love That I find in you Finding my struggles that you claimed about are true Madness and beauty That changed Your point of view All of the lies and all the fights that I never knew I'm tryna explain all of this pain, Finding the words that are deep in my soul It's like I am there but he's taking control He's back in my Brian likes he's done it before Can't Even Lie I'm smoking these blunts till the day that I die I'm going so hard and I don't even try Momma I'm sorry if I'm I dying tonight Look Of course shit it different. Like a Manual transmission My mood just be shifting. Had to put the down weed for a minute Cuz I couldn't resist it. Itching to smoke All My bones started Twisting But this isn't Any Stranger things We need to Clear our minds every fucking day And when you don't your problems Start to weigh heavily So May I lay These words Just to feel some calmness Inside my soul. Been spitting rhymes Since I was twelve years old When I seen How far your words and letters can go Only started saving them When I got a phone, and then I got bold To start spitting home, when I was alone. But I never been alone like this Getting better with my words Every flow I'm bitten And I'm hella fucking worth it This No Osiris Yea, this is no Osiris Moving on with life couldn't be No bitch Destin for the fame got grinding everyday Ain't stopping till I'm flexing one hundred bands in Yo face But I'm grateful for acting cause this what you made Now you tryna play with the one And I can never get enough Got higher feeling got higher feelings And ain't even the drugs Got mind control of my own But you always making me fold When you come along you come along It's hard for me to let go