Mental Health Day

I, I can't keep I can't keep running, can't keep running away I, I, I, I can't keep I can't keep running, can't keep running I'm tired of seeing death I keep falling into myself and I don't know where to turn I've been searching, I need some help God order my steps, I can only pivot right, pivot left Ain't keeping up with the Jones', the cards I'm holding, I'm folding Can't focus, I'm hopeless You noticed, I think not You thinking I'm on the go, man, I'm running in one spot I might look like I'm all together, but trust me, I'm not They said "fake it until you make it," So I lie a lot Well, if hurt people hurt people, why should I give you a hand up, I can barely stand up "So man up." That's what they told us when we was young pups So all this rage and emotion that's bottled up makes me feel like I had enough I'll explode if I get touched I'll implode without no love I lose control cause I don't trust Won't shed a tear cause I'm too tough This is my cry for help, if you can hear me pick up Life moves too fast to just slow down One day I'm up then it goes down I don't know where to go now. Nowhere to go now My life moves too fast to just slow down One day I'm up then it goes down I don't know where to go now Nowhere to go I was almost happy, almost paid, almost married I was almost the greatest dad, but I followed it almost baby Almost bought a house, working a job where I felt almost safe Then I lost it all, feel like a happy yesterday Tried to avoid a bout with depression, I almost got away Fell in lust with the scale, Let's save her for another day I walk around defeated inside with a smile on my face Wishing I could go off the grid and vanish without a trace I needed to be alone, but hated feeling lonely Everybody got something to say, but nobody can show me The man in the mirror, me and me only My reflection is perfect, my spirit is broken I'm hopelessly hoping that I can find a way out of this hole I'm grabbing and holding on to everything, don't want to let go Will it get better tomorrow I'm hoping but I don't know I feel like I'm drifting away and fading I want to stay, but I keep Running away Life moves too fast to just slow down One day I'm up then it goes down I don't know where to go now Nowhere to go My life moves too fast to just slow down One day I'm up then it goes down I don't know where to go now Nowhere to go Life moves too fast to just slow down One day I'm up then it goes down I don't know where to go now, Nowhere to go Life moves too fast to just slow down One day I'm up then it goes down I don't know whereto go now Nowhere to go