What If..

I kept asking myself What if? (What if?) What if I didn't open my mouth when I did What if? (What if?) What if I didn't trust you again when you first did Do me wrong I blamed it all on myself Until you didn't it again (Didn't it again) It wasn't fair But what if What if I didn't offer to help and stayed in my lane What if I left (What if I left) when I first saw the red flags You knew how to get on my nerves (You knew how to get on my nerves) When I looked in my mama's eyes I knew she was ashamed That's not what she taught me But little did she know I was detoxing From you (Detoxing From You) Because what if I played your game and put up with boundaries Treated you all the same And never called you my second family (And never called you my second family, yeah) It's true Treat them the way they treated you I was being the bigger person Tell me why I was so small in-front of you I had my life ahead of me But I couldn't see past you It's true Treat them the way they treated you I was being the bigger person Tell me why I was so small in-front of you I had my life ahead of me But I couldn't see past you Life moves on your sorrys are past due (Past due) Like J. Cole said "it's beauty in the struggle" And that's true All the beauty came after you Left (Left) I took a right because I knew I was You only wanted to pick fights (Wanted to pick fights) That's your definition of love What ifs won't change the fact I won't be able to trust (I won't be able to trust) Ever again I don't think I want to, even if I fucking can I have dreams and goals to focus on (I have dreams and goals to focus on) Even family gatherings didn't attend What makes you think you're on top on em (You're on top on em) My dad made sure we always livin' right What makes you think I'll settle for less We went through hell Always known we fucking blessed Even when I had the world on my fucking chest As low as it fucking gets I thank God, I thank God It's true Treat them the way they treated you I was being the bigger person Tell me why I was so small in-front of you I had my life ahead of me But I couldn't see past you It's true Treat them the way they treated you I was being the bigger person Tell me why I was so small in-front of you I had my life ahead of me But I couldn't see past you