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Boy go to bed You got class In the morning I'm tryna be honest with you I'm not honest with myself But when i'm around you shawty I'm best version of myself I ain't mean to block ya shawty Hope you know i'm not so well But if we stop talking shawty Always hope you doing well Momma don't know much bout mari Locked up in the fucking cell Knew this life shit was a test But I fucking failed Eventually we'll speak sometime Is what you say to me You shoulda stayed and spent the night You shoulda stayed with me Cause when I close my eyes tonight I hope I stay asleep And then i'll be okay Cause nobody was saving me I started taking drugs Cause I thought it was saving me I wanted to open up But my close My mouth and I don't speak Nobody know what I gone thru It's been hard Tryna fight Fight bout what I gone thru No I handled our lil situation wrong But I didn't mean to do ya wrong I didn't know what you You was going through I hope you know but it's hard For me to talk to you It's hard for me to talk to you Cause I got feelings for you And things in the past That I hold in Burn inside like hell Nobody, nobody know How I feel This is a cry out for help If you hear Shawty I want you to know this Yeah i'm sorry That I closed my heart When yours was open And I know i'm standoffish I don't show emotion But I hold it all in But I hold it all in I can't hold it all in I can't hold it all in But I gotta hold it in But I gotta hold it in For my mama For my pops For my sister For lil ken To lil shawty Yeah I hope Yeah I hope We meet again But I think my stories over Yeah I think my stories written And I hope that you know That I loved you baby And if we don't talk I hope you call me maybe I hope that we speak Eventually Baby Five in the morning Five in the morning In talking to you Five in the morning I'm tryna Tell you The truth I ain't mean to do you wrong I ain't mean to be too rude But the drugs start to take control I don't wanna seem too rude Hard for me to express myself Feelings burn inside It feel like hell Nobody know i'm not Doing well Tried time and time And still I fail I was only tryna make shit right I ain't wanna, I ain't want us to fight You the reason that I can't sleep at night Cause I'm tryna figure out why Momma don't know How I said I been I'm fighting for my life Hoping I win I might f*ck around And cut off my friends Cause who gon love me When this life shit end.