Still Waters

Spiraled…into silence Lips too afraid to open up and shout past the static that buzzed me into brokenness Dysfunctional Is what the code read Code Red! She's unusable on this earth mission I was a prototype that short-circuited one times to too many Trying to be machine, machine, machine Instead of being, being, being And I shut…down I mean…I rebooted And I…restarted And the Fathership He turned this heart of steel Into a heart of living, breathing flesh Ring me around the rosies all you want, Spy But I will never fall down at your feet The only things I leave are the ashes of the old me And death may have almost Almost…knocked me out But I'm done taking the punches I'm…stiller than the springs out in mountain tops Interrupted by the occasional wind or curious animal But nothing will stop me from protecting my peace I may have an inner enemy who wants to turn my waters into whirlpools Spiraling me until I can't eat, sleep, or breathe She wants me to overthink every little thing so I no longer think about caring for myself or the people around me The people here to help pick up the broken pieces of me I thought would be swept into the sea So you see I WILL speak more kindly to myself And fast forward myself from the past While rewinding myself from the future So when I press play, I'm living presently A new young woman who refuses to let her previous silence dictate her current confidence And yes, I'm still a bit quirky And sometimes I talk so fast my words trip over their own feet But through all the strange puzzle pieces that make up my mind I will live I will thrive I will…breathe Breathe Breathe Antigravity chamber activated