Bad Friend

Say I’m a bad friend, I’m not around when They call or text and don’t even check in Have an event and I won’t even step in Don’t even think to ask for a commitment I’ll run fast as I can, and you can count on that shit K’sa’s monthly disappearance, guess that’s what they call it I’m not proud at all of it and if that’s how you measure friendship Well damn, I guess that I’m a bad friend then It’s just that lately I ain’t got much to say Been working day and night, no time for play I love what I do but what I’m trying to say is I’m addicted to productivity, if I could I’d shoot it through my veins Don’t want to sit around, high and drunk playing games No more wasting life been there, I’m just saying Well maybe not high but drunk But the past few years fam The girl done grown up Screw a hook imma continue Always had a lot to say and still do The past 2 years been filled with pain too The reality of our mortality hit me like train It’s messin with my brain too But at the end of the day I got your back I really do Don’t have to ask to come through When you really need me, I come through If you really see me you know that it’s true Don’t know why I do what I do And I’m sorry it confuses you Don’t tell me that I don’t really love you Cuz I really do Don’t know why I do what I do And I’m sorry it confuses you Don’t tell me that I don’t really love you Cuz I really do Say I’m a bad homie but I don’t think you know me Won’t care about your engagement ring but it’s only Cuz I think the wedding industry is phony Don’t take it personally it’s just not for me Won't have society tell me how to show my love They say buy a gift I say no thank ya Write a card hallmark shit won’t be controlled by stuff That doesn’t make sense, now listen up There’s a conundrum in relationships and it goes like this If you loved me you’d give me space You know I need it too And If you loved me, you’ve never go away You know I needed you Both are true Both people have conflicting needs, yes it’s true And in these friendships, it’s me and you But at the end of the day I still love you