Mind

Warfare inside of my mind in times Feels like asylum ain't no escaping these insane times Inside this body with a gold soul I won't never bend break or fold don't wanna self destruct I used to wanna end this life the most high gave to me They can't stand the fact That Im different that imma black sheep in the family Always talked about or laughed at They don't understand me or my mindset that I'm truly blessed with Always counted out and thought of last Warfare inside of my mind in times Feels like asylum ain't no escapin these insane time Lets take a blast back to the past Back in the day when my uncle used to beat my ass fa being bad You know whats crazy? i looked at him like the father i never had Had gracious men teach me lessons instead, really raised me into a man Even times i grew hatred for em It was a lot of lessons taught through his words and his hands It slick reminded me of the father I never had taught me some shit that he never did Back when i was nine, used to wanna take a nine and put em in a hearse Look ma i know that it hurts but ya brother treated me the worst I couldn't help but feeling resentment, felt like my family was cursed I can't help but think i was a accident Even worse i don't see why i was sent to this earth I couldn't see Todd as a father He just act like a lil girl or should i say a woman he actin feminine Like he always got his panties in a twist I see why ion see him as a father merely a bitch in sheep clothes These ain't no real prophets or real family members feel like they devils in cloaks Manipulated my mind, spoke evil behind my back and laughed in my face It feel like warfare inside of my mind in times Feels like asylum ain't no escapin these insane times I never felt like my family was for me tell me who else can relate I don't f*ck with my family, where the real love i feel hate Where the loyalty? all i hear is the snakes Cause they saying I'm being weird, you being weird to me Cause i don't f*ck with my family, cause they don't really f*ck with me