Fear [Re-Recorded 2018]

I am far from what I've been A new world for me to see All precious things that I have seen Look simple and so small to me All banners waved are set aflame As mountains rise in front me No mercy and no one to blame For the darkness I will see With every aspect of my soul I am longing for relief From this darkest certainty I wish I could believe Every second I seek answers To the question that has none That has to remain unanswered Until we are gone With every hour that I spend On exploring this terrain Fear is growing ever onward How long can I stand this pain? If there will be something It would be fine for me to go And if there will be nothing Will I ever know? That there will be something After bodies cease to be The fear that there could be nothing Is paralysing me