Closer

Before i lose my mental i get this off my chest still Before i crash this rental before i crash this I understand im a man and this shits detrimental but all i know is gentle so why you temperamental You could just leave and ill grieve under someone like you Am i naive now I’ll deceive so i can write this haiku I think you’re right and i do know those rules apply to other guys the type who only know to spite you Closer to me I want to be the one For me Sending shivers down my spine Just as I wrote this line But I’ve tried to die a thousand times I wish my mind was mine Or that you’d see the signs Doesn’t matter any more Fam I’m good I’m fine Oh it’s still calm out here yet I will live in fear Of maybe hurting my self or probably someone else. These thoughts will creep up in stealth my minds forgotten Heath. Or maybe my lack of wealth is why I’m lacking help. Oh the support is there but I refuse to share Pride is the only thing that I won’t spare. Kinda feeling the pressure to stop this thing from festering Am I the joke Am I the jester. It’s not black or white i think I’ve lost connection Did i forget to mention now I ignore your mentions I think I need exemption From The narrative I write I hope the ends in sight