Debris

Hundred feet up, dizzy in the head Legs off a ledge, dangling by a thread But I see my end sitting so close Flirting with the ground so far below I just wanna rest six feet beneath it Or end up as a stain on the pavement Either way, I feel death breathing down my neck I'm a wreck I lost my job All because I stepped away for a lost cause Drugs run my life Dope is a knife Stabbing me deep Putting out the light I was holding high up Now I fucked my life up I can hear voices in my head "Silly little boy, go ahead" Fall apart Collapse now Become debris Do it now The lights of the city watch me Unbothered entirely I can't motivate myself to jump Even though I'm so tired of the fucking Wind as it seems to push, me Entertained by me struggling Even though I wanna fight this I can hear my thoughts hiss "Everything has gone wrong I don't see why I should be around anymore Pain is on top, making me its whore" Motivating me, whispering to me "Drugs are your safe, haven, don't you see? Nobody cares for you the same way that you do for them" Even though I wanna jump I don't think I can Fall apart (I'm not gonna) Collapse now (Still, I won't) Become debris (I don't wanna) Do it now So I get down Descend the stairs Back to my apartment Where I sit and stare At the wall Don't care at all Lay on my back Let myself fall Apart