Childhood (feat. 1up Tee)

My whole childhood was sick, I'm doing better, I pray for that I be sitting, thinking about the shit I did, how the f*ck I get away with that I ain't got no felony charges and shit on my record, still that's my greatest flicks It was a lot of times I had lost myself, had to retrace my steps, take it back I was on the paddling, me, Dave, and Rob I knew every young nigga on my street, I had fun, I played the block I'm a 4-1 Finkel, baby. Past 18, you can't survive But I made it to 20, I'm making some money. Shit, I'm just thanking God Me and the fam used to ride in the caddy Carl on the ass, ghetto shit, that's my in-town side of the family He kicking me game and telling me stories when I used to ride with my daddy I took all the game and ran with that shit, now I'm at the top of the ladder Nigga, you don't know all the shit I've been through Put my trust in these bitches and buying them shit, in the end I get fooled You might just think I be rapping this shit, but I'm living it too Me and Manny in a BMW X6, sipping the juice Mama always hugged the kids, I'm affectionate I ain't know her loving a nigga and loving me was separate shit Damn, we was in a different nigga house every year Then used to think that I was enough, but now I understand it clear My whole childhood was sick, I'm doing better, I pray for that I be sitting thinking about the shit I did, how the f*ck I get away with that I ain't got no felony charges and shit on my record, still that's my greatest flicks It was a lot of times I had lost myself, had to retrace my steps Take it back, it was just me Malik and Pops Hearing gunshots pop like every night, I seen a lot on my Insta side Grandma, grandpa, and granny fed me good, used to eat a lot I know my childhood friends looking at me now like, how the f*ck is T alive Yeah, it was me, Lil Wu and ro Way before I was serving, doing fraud and catching calls I grew up in the Jets, moved to the East, back to the West Had a new school every year, stayed in trouble, causing stress But I graduated, one for that orange pill, I wouldn't have made it All the niggas I looked up to died on me, real gangsters I never got mad with niggas, hated on me, I embraced it From time to time, I'm getting off, balling like the players, yeah Ain't nobody gonna help you fight any cases Can't call them same niggas if you was just helping, you losing faith I should be numb to it, but I still be feeling the pain Yeah, money can buy you shelter, but I still be feeling the rain My whole childhood was sick, I'm doing better, I pray for that I be sitting thinking about the shit I did, how the f*ck I get away with that I ain't got no felony charges and shit on my record, still that's my greatest flicks It was a lot of times I had lost myself, had to retrace my steps, take it back It was just me Malik and pops, hearing gunshots pop like every night I seen a lot on my Insta side Grandma, grandpa, and granny fed me good, used to eat a lot I know my childhood friends looking at me now like, how the f*ck is T alive