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I feel like I did if I didn't use drugs See like, when you take drugs You go up, then you go down After a while You start to go below the normal level So when you get high You just get normal You're not getting high anymore See what I'm saying?" I'm far gone No longer caring What my friends say Don't wanna shoot myself If I lose myself that's end game Not after money These fake girls or pretend fame I'm here to say I'm insane Mind moves the speed of ten brains I'm in pain; but I never complain I think I'm normal Wake up sometimes Forget I'm deranged Fifty percent of my brain Is used up I'm too fucked Over The Cuckoo's Nest I flew, ducked Got hit by a plane And blew up I spit random shit Dealing with abandonment They make your life for you You just gotta put your stamp in it And I'm revampin' shit Quitting what addicted to Get Coke, mix a Blue Make plans that I forget to do Forget to call I just want you to know I miss you too I feel like I won So it's moving on to mission two Feeling a little down I'm half retarded Took my first blue and flew On the Magic Carpet Just took my last blue This is where the magic started Wiped the fucking slate clean But I left the fabric tarnished