Feel So High (feat. Grace Chia)

Only ever seem to want what's bad for me But I don't know that when it's happening So every word I speak is of tragedy And every time I blink I'm in agony Exhausted tired of turning a blind eye Nauseas sick of the right place wrong guy I like a challenge bring on the torture Put me off balance I like the deep water Till I don't and I'm far from sure No hope but I ask for more Once again I've been left for dead I can't follow my heart when it's off it's head Like why do I do this put myself through this Triple my bet when I know that I'm losing Know that my friends hear the same excuses Over again we all know what I'm doing Get ruthless so stupid So sorry that I act up a nuisance Punish myself and neglect my music Part of a pattern I'm yet to break through it Yet to accept that I need to invest all my time into writing And clean up my head Look at this mess look what you've done Take a look at the ways that you f*ck yourself up Granted there's many Standard get messy I planned it you ready? I'm running on empty But there's gotta be something left In amongst all the post traumatic stress I want a life I'm gonna make one Stand in my way you can see what I'm made of Cos I won't back down no more All the tools that I need are inside my core Been bruised been bleeding f*ck that noise I'mma drown out the sound cos I found my voice I'mma speak for those who feel stuck I'mma prove that we don't need luck I'mma show that I don't need help All I need is a dream believe in myself All I need is a dream believe in myself In theory ideally Stick to it think clearly I don't wanna look back see nearly I just needa extract my feelings Put 'em in places where they make sense Decide what I want get the f*ck off the fence Discipline something I always admired Learned all the lessons and never applied them I say I too much I don't like to trust I been fuckin dumb till I wisened up Now there's no excuse I just get it done I don't need approval who are they to judge? If you don't have the heart to do what you love You're the last who could laugh at someone who does And the first one I tell to go and get fucked When I step out of hell and blow the place up Like bang there go my memories There go my everything F*ck my identity I don't need anything I been dependent and wasted my energy Nobody taking the rest of me