Selfish

I trap myself in corners of my mind that no one sees But I know I can focus my vision 360 degrees I know the power of the brain to change reality I know that I can find the catalyst and get it out of me That little bubble in my chest that breaks my fucking heart And stops me reaching out to people I will only get them wrong Even when they mean no harm I cannot trust it I am aggravated by my limitations, knowing I'm the one who made em And by the centimetre I get closer to my core Discover all the pieces of myself I thought for sure were gone I must be alone now, I have tried it their way I don't think I want the things that all of us are taught to chase I met the girls who dreamt of bachelors and wedding cakes And grooms with big salaries and doctorates and real estate They didn't care for personality the realest fake They could see the suit the hands the shoes the ring but not the face And not the morals or the heart or the soul We're bombarded with ideals from the moment we crawl And right now even more so than ever before I don't wanna be a brand can't we build a rapport I'm out of synch with almost everyone i care about Deterred from making more attempts so f*ck it i'll be awkward now F*ck it explain myself I suffer with anxiety And i will not return your calls no more i need my privacy I have been inside a cave the advertising lied to me I was never nothing like the person they said i should be I get triggered if i see acceptance of depression memes And i get visions everything is linked beyond the depth we see We need a marketing campaign to ask are you okay I'd rather not be asked if its not what you want to say Its worse to feel as though i perfectly articulate a thought And realise i forgot to gauge the other brain was safe It's alright - you don't have to understand it I can't come up for air until i found atlantis I keep it candid they call me overdramatic They keep it bottled i think all of them are tragic It's hard to talk to you, we speak a different language I miss when we connected but I must repair my damage I'm sending love without reception hope you felt it I just don't wanna see or talk to you I'm fucking selfish Said I just don't wanna see or talk to you I'm fucking selfish