Real Life

I'm the type to sit alone in a house and load a gun until it go off Hit so many lines I burn my nose off Cripple a motherfucker then use a crutch to Beat his fucking head off Suffocate in smoke until it's fog Tryna walk around feeling the walls I'm off a upper til I can't go to sleep Then hit it down til it's breaking my knees I'm complicated till I'm not and turn it to A disease I wish you knew me like that bitch is broken hearted I'm a real life monster I don't need you till I do and then I'm drunk calling I don't need it in my life but I like it as An option I'm a real life monster I'd rather turn into a cancer than admit I got a problem Be this way until they applaud and I hear my curtain callin I'm the real life pound in the truck my gun tucked Suspicious of anyone tryna tell me what's what Like I don't already know, like I ain't Done this before Like I ain't been in situations where murder Was infiltrating my mind space See life is a bitch, she only going on blind Dates, My subconscious is rich but my reality fake So I live to find a place that I can call home But I'm a homewrecker so I always need a new home Like to eat a bitch out like I need meat on my bone Fall in love with the ideas instead of reading the room Workin' straight 24, I'm tryna make it to Rome Could focus on the bright side but my mind like to roam Please picture a family where the 9 year old grown Now get married and divorced until the trust really grown You can't set an example when your examples were shown That there's nothing you can do but sit and feelin' alone See that's a real life monster I don't need you till I do and then I'm drunk calling I don't need it in my life but I like it as An option I'm a real life monster I'd rather turn into a cancer than admit I got a problem Be this way until they applaud and I hear my curtain callin Sayin' bartender please feed me until I pass out Stumble over to a bitch and tell her that I wanna use her till she wore out Make a bitch regret any time she pour her heart out Cause I regret every time I pour my heart out Acknowledge the fact that I'm an asshole then give me what I want because I like to f*ck Slow Better enjoy this feeling you ain't gon feel it again It's like losing everything then comin back with a win I like fingernails deep in my skin so I can feel somethin' Torturin' me with sleep baby I wanna build Somethin' Commitment shy like she ain't in my house Naked all the time Couldn't be a low life baby I'm way too high Blame all my disrespect on this money I'm makin Conscience needs a conversation I can hear for the takin So this devil in my ear always feedin' motivation Same mistake made again I'm bout to make a compilation Rather Hire somebody for my dirty work So the outside clean and the inside spotless Livin' a restless timeline but I'm here regardless My priorities are focused on these temporary entities Because anything that's permanant is worthless to me So I always take a glass of what I want not what I need But what I want is to really get a feel of what I need But not every lamp you gon' rub gon' have a genie I ain't tryna waste my time so I peel back the cap I'm too real what's the secret I ain't here for that Need a bitch to fall in love with the way that I act I need the blunts laced with muscle relaxers and heart attacks Crush a Xanax and feed it to the dog he gon' play less Life death experience I'm tryna think less So my bathtub ice cold breakdown dry I'm raw Tell me what you really want I'm here for your soul I'm a real life monster I don't need you till I do and then I'm drunk calling I don't need it in my life but I like it as an option I'm a real life monster I'd rather turn into a cancer than admit I got a problem Be this way until they applaud and I hear my curtain callin I'm that