Feeling A Rue

I'm feeling a rue with both eyes on the jewels Finding my way out of the blue, out of the red So the pressure won't leave me dead and leave me alone instead Stacking this bread getting myself out of bed Outside on my own head I needed my fez To cope with my uncle being dead Blood and the tears were shed I'm locked with a plan Is there a way to the man I'll do what I want and can Back home in Cali four times I changed my addy Even when times were maddie I'll talk to ali Told me just keep fighting trust and believe you'll see The person you wanna be but the person you wanna set free I'm feeling a rue heart and soul misused Both been used to abuse loving the pain Hating myself what I choose when do I never not lose Short term love mates with a short term fuse Leaving me alone and confused I needed to use Let myself hang loose suit with a tie on noose Not here for the news breaking the hearts for the views Wake up my love it's true the path that I made Made for only a few never ever wanna lose you Feeling a rue, time is long overdue Rolling in 5 no cue look deeper in you There's no debate take two See who's checking on you I gotta break through Feelings I need to renew, back in control That's true that's word up to lex life is so complex Household is a mess anxiety and stress Bringing me down to the press can't even manage to rest I'm doing my best living this life is a test I don't wanna confess it's hard to request When you solo a quest how's it like to invest When you're obsessed and so insecure Is it a positive cure I know way up And proceed to the gate but it's never too late Everybody wait no need to escape Lucked with a twist of fate it's why we're here Vision ever so clear it's okay to be queer Kicking in to high gear Death time love always yeah