Jaded

It's hard to explain The way a love can wane under the strain It's rarely plain It slowly fades away It's hard to see when apathy remains Oh, I tell myself it's just a phase At times I find it's hard to cope The truth is that I've been afraid To hurt the one I love the most But the waiting can hurt It's not fair to you Sometimes staying is worse And goodbye is the right thing to do I wish that I had seen it Now I'm sorry for concealing The fact that I've been feeling Jaded I can't deny I've been craving the nights I once Hated And though it's not the same for you I hope you know I'm wishing you well Four months time And this might be insane I can't shake the thought of how you'd say my name Remember how you do it? Yeah I've been going through it And I wish I had you here to numb the pain You used to say the same Ain't it funny how we change? I saw you just the other day Don't you think it's kinda strange? The way you treat me like another When I used to be your lover Tell me, is this just a phase? At times I find it's hard to cope I guess I didn't know the pain To lose the one I love the most And how it was tempting To say what I thought But my pride wouldn't let me No, instead I'm pretending I'm not Miserable and lonely While I'm wishing I could be In a time when I was only Jaded I can't deny I've been craving the nights I once Hated And I wish it were the same for you The single life has put me through hell Oh well Wasted Are the words that would have made you stay 'Cause now they'd only make you say "well, well, well"