Beautiful Pain

Every night I close my eyes You’re all that’s in my mind I wanna take you away From this cold pouring rain Grab my hand babe We can leave it all behind No need to shed a tear I’m looking in your eyes And I just wanna cry You are so beautiful to me But you’re gone And I’m still sitting in the same spot Waiting for the day my music pops Running out of ideas Making me feel like a flop And I ain’t even made it a quarter way to the top Quit my fucking job Feel like just gripping the glock Put it to my temple wish my friends luck Lately I’ve been feeling like I don’t give a f*ck Lately I’ve been feeling this world is too much Lately I’ve been contemplating Anticipating downgrading my grind And I catch myself waiting Instead of running and driving and striving I’m falling and hurting and crying I’m sprinting escaping my demons I’m tripping and crawling and screaming Stuck in my contradictions Feel like I lost my conscience Laying in my bed staring at the ceiling Don’t know where the f*ck I’m going