Window Pain

Tell me why the f*ck that I feel this way I be smokin', ashin on the window pane I be tryin', but these things won't ever change I've come a long way, but I went the wrong way Tell me why the f*ck that I feel this way I be smokin', ashin on the window pane I be tryin', but these things won't ever change I've come a long way, but I went the wrong way Tellin' me you love me but I know damn well you don't F*ck me 'round and 'round, you lyin You hidin' like that damn cloak Fucked my life up, used my time up, I ain't got nowhere to go I been sittin', I been drinkin', walkin' in the fuckin' snow I just want my time intact and read all of these fuckin' demons But my mind is not at home and I ain't found a fuckin' reason To live or drive to riverside, I'm feelin' like it's suicide Slit my veins, bloody drains, bathtub full of memory pain Tell me why the f*ck that I feel this way I be smokin', ashin on the window pane I be tryin', but these things won't ever change I've come a long way, but I went the wrong way Tell me why the f*ck that I feel this way I be smokin', ashin on the window pane I be tryin', but these things won't ever change I've come a long way, but I went the wrong way You just upped and vanished I wish I knew what happened 'Cause now I feel abandoned Fever of a hunnid thousand Lost everything I ever had in a mission Took to addiction, stole my ambition Can not decipher my demons, so my friends I can't trust 'em Hit the demons and I'm bustin' caps in their stomachs Playin' with my thoughts and my feelin's So I gotta keep on killin' these tracks, 'cause it's all that I got F*ck that bitch with the long dick like Drown my thoughts with the long neck, right Hit the beach at the midnight 'till I drown everything that I feel You won't understand where I've been Places so dark and stark I need a restart Smart with remarks, blow up 'till I fall to shards Lookin' up to the stars Tell me why the f*ck that I feel this way I be smokin', ashin on the window pane I be tryin', but these things won't ever change I've come a long way, but I went the wrong way Tell me why the f*ck that I feel this way I be smokin', ashin on the window pane I be tryin', but these things won't ever change I've come a long way, but I went the wrong way And I've been stuck in my thoughts, thinkin' way the f*ck back The happy times, now I'm in grief, knowin' I can't go back Man this shits tough, I feel like hittin' the sack I wake up and I'm tired of livin', I'm feelin' way different My friends don't understand it, and I'm at peace with that I just wanna numb myself, so I can't feel anything My head is clouded with depression, times changed and it's too different I'm unstable and I'm not settled, I'm fuckin' drinkin' again Sittin' on the balcony, palm trees swayin' in the wind A Camel between my fingers, watchin' the sky, will I be allowed in Things I've done, things I can't change It's weighin' on my shoulders Like the weight of the whole world My souls gone, I'm too cold, I ain't fuckin' stable I ain't fuckin' stable