Why Do I Feel Like This

I said I'm 16 With a big dream But in reality I don't know who I wanna be I'm taking AP classes I'm really stressed out I'm doing homework But I'd rather be at my friend's house There's a girl I like I think she's really swell Don't know if she likes me back It's really hard to tell They say be bold Buts it's hard when you've felt rejection I haven't had my first kiss I've never felt affection Girls don't show interest But I never show it either I'm scared of the future I know I'll have to leave her I know I can't be with her So I give up I tell myself be patient And keep your chin up Why why why Do I feel like this Why why why Do I feel like this Dam I'm only sixteen Why do I have these thoughts They say that I'm mature I wish that I could stop Wish I was a kid again Because those days were simple Wasn't worried about girls, school, and sudden pimples I know I'm a teenager And I get really moody Feels like I'll never change When the days are gloomy Sometimes I think that I'm the phony I put on this smile and act friendly But actually I'm really lonely Feels like I'm way behind Held back by my morals I'm seriously a junior And haven't been to formal I was worried about the price But there's a bigger cost I could have gone twice Those memories are lost Why why why Do I feel like this Why why why Do I feel like this Sometimes I wonder why do I make music People don't even listen I guess I'm useless If I rapped about guns and drugs After that, I guarantee that I'd have views and funds Maybe they're right when they say my music sucks I don't have the talent I'll never make the cut Two years down the drain What a waste of time If I end my script now Who would remember my lines I want you to know This one represents my lows My life isn't full of what I rap in my songs Actually my life is full of all the feelings I hold Why do I feel this I hope it doesn't last long Why why why Do I feel like this Why why why Do I feel like this