I'm Embarrassed

I admit I fucked up But make it work was the plan b Plan a was to make my mom a grammy Plan C was to bring home the grammy Bring home the girl who would jump in the family That was you now its cool swear im fine now Guess it didn't happen then its due time now Nothing left cuz I threw out my pride now So Im not embarrassed in these songs when I whine now Wind down with the friends I grew up with Not really my friends just some dudes I threw up with The people I hold near are often not here So I swig a couple beers when I'm down on my lonely Down on my drunk shit Down on fear tho I cry driving to work And I feel like a weirdo And I feel like you hate me I feel like get me I feel your happy now And thats the shit that upsets me Cuz I thought I made you fucking happy with my sad ass I thought I helped you get over such a sad past The girl misused mistreated misfortunate I really thought I found that sad girl who adores this kid But Now theres no chance for our isle walk Think about those lies in my idle thoughts Gotta keep busy keep my mind off of marriage And being too honest On second thought I am embarrassed Red Bull and a bouquet Remind me again where you stay You've been moving from place to place These days Tell me and I'm on the way Twenty-three I'm on the go Twenty-five hundred a show Looking at me funny Like ah shit it's picking up now Yeah i called you one day But of course you'd pick it up now Looking at the money Like of course he's switching up Looking at your honey Like of course you'd give it up now Twenty-seven still working on the sidewalks Shit I'm 23 and I'm working on a time slot But that doesn't make me better Just bitter You see that pretty girl I was just tryna get with her Yeah a couple dudes Think I'm cupping dudes Just who the f*ck are you Just confused bout your couple views While I'm out in Haiti Spent With my lady friends Counting benjamins Beachside at lakou lakay Would you decide please Don't worry about this nigga and his timepiece Or his sidepiece Girl you a dam dime piece Boom and her mind gone Love to stay and chat But we're in another time zone But baby if you wanna chat hit my line up Put your pride aside lets get dined up somewhere nobody could find us Jacob tell em