coping mechanisms

Overindulge I made a home of the fog And its distractions Strayed a little too far Im not concerned though Its seems that i should be Nothing feels real So theres less of the hurting And i wont call it strength I think its Something like momentum Oblivion is how ive Learned to cope With mechanisms Do what i can to try and stay intact Cant call it strength Avoidance at its best Im aware And impaired Much too tender & bare Matters of which I hadn’t had a clue I wont ask And i refuse The attempts Not cognizant Much too illusive Its come to a point of Unsustainability All these methods ive formed Form a mystery of me Im okay for now Til resonation sets in Soon im fleeing the war In my mind and apartment And i wont call it strength I think its Something like momentum Oblivion is how ive Learned to cope With mechanisms Do what i can to try and stay intact Cant call it strength Avoidance at its best Im aware And impaired Much too tender & bare Matters of which I hadn’t had a clue I wont ask And i refuse The attempts Not cognizant Much too illusive And i wont call it strength Its strictly to Subside the symptoms Singular beside myself My one and only victim