I'm Waiting

I'm waiting for the tears to fall that will finally wash the pain away For the years to crawl that will take me to another day I'm waiting to awaken every hidden part of me Even as I forsake the family How can I accept the truth I've rejected all my life Out of the need to survive And now I am expected to see how I've been infected With a shroud of your deviance and lies I'm waiting for you to call and tell me what you cannot say This is not your fault, you are not to blame I'm waiting to resolve the past and deal with who I've become Drink the bitter gall and let it be done Once I had to fight the memories of the night Now I believe You accuse me with delight but what I've done is only right I have to let my spirit learn to breathe But I'm waiting for the moment when this wall will not divide my heart When I've mended you've relented and we'll no longer have to be apart I'm waiting for my prayer to catch a star to fall and be your guide Waiting through this earthly stretch and if you must, upon the Other Side I'm waiting