Trying to Be Me

I remember a little girl from my youth Lost in sorrow, locked away from the truth I want to hold her close and feel safe inside I want to remember why She has no one to love her and nothing to live for Why, tears run sour and sicken within her She will never trust again a brand new day I can't seem to reach her before she fades away Trying to be me, I am trying to be me Is it her, or me, trying to be me We've got to run from this side or fall apart fast This one does nothing but rage over the past Her pain was unbearable, too much too survive We betray her, yet she vows to stay alive Under the radar she rattles our chains We are afraid of her, and what we became She is screaming and weeping; she wants to be heard Demanding we feel what it's like to be her She is trying to be me, she is haunting all my dreams We are all going crazy, she is trying to be me A dark secret world hides in one child She was taken there pure and left, defiled She has all our memories of shame and dread Of pleasing-then easing our body off the bed No one believes! We were afraid to be sure Her thoughts are unthinkable, so we forgot her She has been waiting in silent despair To find me after all these years She is trying to be me, she is dying to be me Somewhere down deep she is trying to break free What happened to my soul It fractured into three Now all three children are trying to be me What happened to my soul It fractured into three Now all three children are trying to be me