Myself at Last

When I was a kid, I had a great yearning To be something different, and so much more girly When I asked my friends if sometimes they felt the same They simply could not pretend they thought I wasn't insane When I was in high school things kinda got worse But it's easy to hide when you do not converse Then I started dating and things really got strange Girls, they found me frustrating, but I couldn't change my ways If maybe you knew the truth You'd understand, but I can't risk it You wouldn't believe, if you did you'd reject And I won't take the chance, 'cause I cannot expect you To share all your makeup and lend me your dresses And colour my nails, and help style my tresses 'Cause I just want to be a princess But I am myself at last The doubt that I felt has passed And I will forevermore be free To be no one but me When I finished college, things got more confusing There were girls I misled just because I was wanting A friend, but they though that I wanted them 'Cause I guess only then is when most guys pay attention I just wanted to hang, but then I got picked So I went out and drank with the boys when I wished To be home with the girls chatting, sipping wine Can't express how I yearned, but that was not going to be my life As I grew older, the fear of exposure Weighed down on my soul, and I'd contemplate always The things that might be if I let people see All the wonderful things that society told me That it found revolting, repellant, provoking I lost years to the dread of things hidden, unsaid Finally I'd had enough I was done with the bluffing, lying, hiding, and waiting Started telling my friends, feared they'd say I misled them Lied to them, betrayed and confused them I was ready to hate, mistrust, disgust To be loathed, disliked, despised, abhorred, but... When I came out, some people couldn't believe it There were some who were proud, and some who only could deem it A sin, but I thought, hey, why should I care 'Cause my friends are aware and only care for my welfare Soon they moved on to topics other than my news I said, "That's not all I got, why aren't you confused Perplexed, bemused? Why do you ignore my story? I'm so sorry it's so boring" Now that you know the truth And understand, now I can trust you You showed you believe, and you do not reject When I shared all my feelings you did not object Still you cannot imagine, you don't know how it feels When I'm out in my dress, standing tall in my heels And shouting loudly from the tree tops: I am myself at last The doubt that I felt has passed And I will forevermore be free To be no one but me I am myself at last The doubt that I felt has passed And I will forevermore be free To be no one but me I am myself at last The doubt that I felt has passed And I will forevermore be free To be no one but me I am myself at last The doubt that I felt has passed And I will forevermore be free To be no one but me I am myself at last The doubt that I felt has passed And I will forevermore be free To be no one but me