Mukduk on a Boat (feat. Noname Chom$ky)

The heart you hit with arguments, lose the truth in your disputes Bruises on her arm again, imagine what I'd do to you Black man use a back hand, now nigga you ain't bulletproof Devalued cuz of pigment, your value I question too I get mad when I think about my family hurting Nigga I get mad, when I think about you as a person Nigga I get mad, and I can't describe that pain inside All I know is I, all I know is I, all I know is I, all I know is I I just wanna run away Black man used a black hand, I hate myself See I been stretched thin, I could break myself Make myself, something I don't wanna, I should pace myself Take myself, really I need grace myself Don't excuse their actions or cure a nigga depression Obama made us well we all in regression Seen my indiscretion, don't blame it on my complexion They, 1 2 testing, hoping to get reactions What they want, a nigga in jail, I'm doing well What they want, they tipping the scale hoping I fail What they want, niggas implemented to the system What I want is my convictions, conflicted they steady tripping Tie your shoe, we just numbers and it's all the same Make it all a fun game, tryna make us David Blaine Soul train to halt, its ya fault, I'm wide awake and Everyday I'm steady praying, hope I don't get to violating (Eye for eye) I just wanna run away Hit the panic button Call the doctor over Cuz I'm feeling something Look at how far we coming Ain't no walking now I guess I'm done with crutches Yeah you been waiting on it We been praying on it Finna start a ruckus Hard to believe I been in and been out of SP Uh Called my pops and he told me All the things he proud of So i guess I'm living Been a minute Since I seen him But guaranteed on moms That I believe him Never chosen Always woven It's braided to the Fabric of my being Honest always On the broadway Cant find the part yo So I told her I'm leaving Like the bug I'm finna go Look at us We finna glow Look at us now Ha Look at us wow I was hungry way before the mil came Here today and gone tomorrow now it's not the same Think they know the old me, like I'm Cassius Clay Gave them everything and in exchange, showed they never change Like they had a bad day at the register Next semester getting close, will I even register? Want me focus on the stats and not the decimals Dewie in the middle now, me and Cole is middle child's Felt that and more to come, still I'm not numb All the second hand you gave me glad I l got lungs Still got heart, drifted but not that far 2 shots I'm in the green, sink the 3rd to stay par Show me love, show me love, think I'm sinking help me up Show me off, show me up, mixed signals like a mutt Bad feeling, like I took a truck to the guts Like I left it in the rain, now I see it start to rust Sometimes I start to question if I'm gifted Traveled down the road, no directions, didn't listen God send me people asking me why I'm tripping Tried to run the marathon, with loose laces, pay attention