Song of the One (feat. Nia Allen)

I sit with this vision of me In a place where I’m better (eh) But know that I ain’t Cause I came from a place Where the game is a set up Been chasing that grace But hiding my face Cause I can’t even get up Stuck on this level Shame on the devil Got me again Grabbing my shovel Digging my hole Out of control Out of my mind man I’m out on my own I been lying to everyone Out on the road I been trying to get home But don’t know where to go I spent too many years on this journey to nothing Drinking and fighting and smoking and cussing Cheating and hustling Suffering daily Soul is on fire Somebody save me Somebody talk to the Lord for me please Cause I think He don’t listen when I’m on my knees Can you intercede Can you set me free Can you give me reason to really believe I know He got 99 problems to follow And I am the one that decided to run And even with all of my sin and my sorrow He gave me the blood of His son But what for To throw it away I remember when I had no where to stay I remember my kids in the motel When I was just drinking my check away See this was my version of reckless love My confession man this ain’t no over dub My confession man this ain’t no over dub I just don't know where to go Cause I've been out here on my own I want to come home Please help me Lord So I dunked in that water In front of them people To show 'em that I’m a believer But the truth is I’m scared as I ever was I don’t know who I am or what Heaven does I don’t know what I’m s'posed to be sayin now Am I supposed to be praying now I just need to hear from you Father God Keep my babies near to you Father God Tomorrow I might get some news that I don’t wanna hear And I’m dreading it deeper (eh) See my daughter might be going through some'n serious What is this secret she keeping (eh) I’m so good at just being a home wrecker But failing at being connected I’m used to my version of reckless Lord I just need you to keep her protected (yes) See this is that part of the song Where I throw up my hands And I give it away I don’t deserve it But she don’t either So please help my baby And show her the way As a father and man I made my mistakes but I know Your purpose is great I been a hundred miles and running all of my life But You chasing me everyday I just don't know where to go Cause I've been out here on my own I want to come home Can You help me Lord And I hear You say Child you've been covered by grace And you already know the way Even though you have strayed It's gonna be ok (I thank You) Even though I am still ashamed (I thank You) And there’s no one but me to blame And my tank is on empty I’m still feeling guilty I wish I could say that I call your name (I thank you) When I cry all alone and (I thank you) I just don’t feel at home And I’m so uncomfortable in my skin And depression is pulling me in And I don’t know why I keep feeling like this Something keep pulling me back in the deep Waters again like I’m caught in a dream And I dont know how to wake up from the sleep All my energy all my enemies All the things I been feeling I can’t take I just can’t wait till you take it away While I pray for the pain to escape I just don't know where to go Cause I've been out here on my own I want to come home Can You help me Lord Oh I hear You say Child you've been covered by grace And you already know the way Even though I have strayed It's gonna be ok