LOCKDOWN

They think I’m not here But all of this time I’ve been holding my fears I cover my ears Destruction is near All that I hear is water come down as my tears I’ve seen my friends get twisted I’ve heard your secrets as whispers I’ve felt your soul as you listened My songs got you as my witness No faith That’s what you get when you trust in yourself Cause all that I see is shit for myself I don’t don’t wanna see it, I know that I fell I know that I fell My secrets came out on that day as well But I couldn’t share, the way that I felt Yeah you, ey You got me to lie, that’s not who I am Yeah all that I tried, was let you divide Your life and what’s mine, the goal that I had Was let you move in and hear me out I opened my heart and you threw me out Thinking that’s fair will make you throw up Someday you’ll find out I’m not just that guy I’m not just that guy I got a few reasons to feel like I’m not Like every few days I go out for a ride I finish it up, I’m cleanin’ it up Get down from my wheels and I feel like a dream It must be the lockdown Every day’s feeling the same I don’t see a way to get out out my head Every day it’s the lockdown, my lockdown All that is left is a feeling of holding your hand Not doing my best, why do I feel like in prison when I’m in my bed? I wanna escape, be there, I wanna be great but I can’t What happened to me? Yeah, my face and my body feels weak No one to believe in me, yeah I’m missing a person to tell me I’m more than I can see My heartbeat, a drumbeat I’m lacking a reason to leap to the streets You see, I’ve been wishing for something or someone to make me complete Now get back to me, give life back to me I want to get rid of my needs You’re more than I, could ever need, you made me bleed You made me plead for my place And how can you say that you don’t like my face? All that I did was put you on my stage I’m staying in lockdown where you’re locked up In my head you’re all that’s left See? Everything’s there for a reason We f*ck up, then we make it up, it doesn’t have to be treason I thought you’d be back in a season Now you, me, and the lockdown are stuck in a threesome Bet you don’t have to be decent Jesus You’re losing attention, I want you to focus on me when I’m talking I spit on this track, I go “f*ck it”, you hear that below? Ey, that’s my kick knocking I see your reaction, this ain’t no distraction I’m losing connection and that’s for protection You hear what I say? Looking around, picking up people and making selections That’s me, ey, yeah, oh When I grow I wanna be an MC Everyone just looking at me Everyone wanna be like me Imma teach em’, yeah, yeah, but I got no time for the nonsense Get out from here if you don’t get the concept Get out of here if you’re lacking the content, no I never get time for my conscience I never get time for my Conscience Find that funny? Locked down, still no time for nothin’ Like a bird trapped, in my cage I’m, feel the weight and it’s so heavy So steady, f*ck my aim I’m so ready Got my gun out, ‘bout to shoot now, no more warning man Head’s about to be nothing more than A piece of fruit in the ceiling, I’m stuck I don’t know what I’m feeling Hands shaking, trigger waiting, in my lockdown I’m devastated Help me out or I’ll blow my brains out Guess that no one is calling back now Hope you get this letter, right? Please know that I’ve never been sick dad