When I'm Not Sober

I didn’t wanna believe that u were right There's no way i called u the other night I guess sometimes when i’m not thinking straight I use u to help me self medicate I want to erase the memories and pain from ur lies And on most days i want our last goodbye to be a forever one But i only want u when i’m not sober Even tho it’s over It’s just easiest for me Cuz it numbs all the memories So we can pretend before this feeling ends And we wanna go back to being strangers again Other times u don’t cross my mind like When I'm sober and can remind myself of past u Tho on nights like these i can’t drive myself away from u And my friends can’t know cuz idk what they’ll do I wish someone would take away my phone And put the thought of u and me behind Cause this won’t stop happening all of the god damn time But i only want u when i’m not sober Even tho it’s over It’s just easiest for me Cuz it numbs all the memories So we can pretend before this feeling ends And we wanna go back to being strangers again Help me look away Help me look away from u Cuz i can’t spend another day spend another day Not letting myself get over u But i only want u when i’m not sober Even tho it’s over It’s just easiest for me Cuz it numbs all the memories So we can pretend before this feeling ends And we wanna go back to being strangers again