Growing Up Good

I seem to be growing up good I'm saving my pennies and dimes I keep them inside of my dresser When my dollars can't help me survive I'm waking up early each day I'm trying to stick to routine On Tuesday I missed all my pills But I still tried to keep up my speed I've got no idea what I'm doing but I'll say it's fine I've got no idea what I'm doing but this mess is mine I'm a teenaged adult Who still acts like a child Haven't turned a new page Since I left for the wild I'm an under-experienced overachiever Who works really hard trying to make you believe her I drink and I smoke and I cry about it all And I hate that I don't ever know what I want My friends are all working to be someone else for the day I don't wanna end up that way I seem to be growing up good They tell me I'm calm and polite Ignore all the cracks in foundation From the pressure of being alright I'm practicing calling my mom She'll hear how I am on my own She'll tell me this stuff isn't something to cry for If only I'd pick up the phone I've got no idea what I'm doing but I'll say it's fine I've got no idea what I'm doing but this mess is mine I'm a teenaged adult Who still acts like a child Haven't turned a new page Since I left for the wild I'm an under-experienced overachiever Who works really hard trying to make you believe her I drink and I smoke and I cry about it all And I hate that I don't ever know what I want My friends are all working to be someone else for the day I don't wanna end up that way End up that way I've got no idea what I'm doing and I'm terrified I've got not idea what I'm doing, I don't wanna lie I'm a teenaged adult Who still acts like a child Haven't turned a new page Since I left for the wild I'm an under-experienced overachiever Who works really hard trying to make you believe her I drink and I smoke and I cry about it all And I hate that I don't ever know what I want My friends are all working to be someone else for the day I don't wanna end up that way End up that way