Bored

I live in fear of standing still That I can't do what I say I will It's not who I am It's the way they built The kingdom in my brain That city never looks the same And I get lost I just wanna do this right I wanna be bored I've tried But I forget to breathe when I'm runnin' so fast away from the feelings So afraid to waste my life That I do it in the meantime And when everybody's sleepin' I stay up all night just to stare at the ceiling I just wanna be, I just wanna be bored I just wanna be, I just wanna be bored I just wanna be, I just wanna be bored I just wanna be bored Is it better To follow to the letter Somebody's plan? The map's in your hands It's not healthy Can't rely on my self-hate To make my dreams come true Love myself like you do And I get lost I just wanna do this right I wanna be bored I've tried But I forget to breathe when I'm runnin' so fast away from the feelings So afraid to waste my life That I do it in the meantime And when everybody's sleepin' I stay up all night just starin' at the ceiling I just wanna be, I just wanna be bored I just wanna be, I just wanna be bored I just wanna be, I just wanna be bored I just wanna be bored Plannin' every minute of my time Multi-taskin' all these jagged lines I can't think straight Need patience for my brain to treat me kind Look around it's so pretty outside I'm not too late