Enough

To what extent is a life worth living When you hold no hope Nothing to believe in Only existing Alive but not breathing I am a waste of everything that I could be Always aching to fade away There's nothing here that makes me want to stay I fear the end is seeping in No light here left to lie in Are my thoughts my own anymore Or overtaken by grief of losing Everything I adore Hopeless; homesick A spitting reflection of sunken depression Forever living on the verge of tears My anxiety is so severe I'm afraid of everything And my body is shaking endlessly I harbour this absence of self compassion That I fill with hate Until I collapse Into a state of disrepair Alone again Until the end Alone again All I ask When I start acting up Is just to be held And told that I am enough