Fences

Life has become bereft of colour Encased in grey, a portrait of misery I'm starting to believe that there is nothing left for me Terrified to let them medicate me And reduce my already fragile state of mind To where I'm so disconnected; Detached from myself and there's nothing that I can feel I'm constantly trying to find the balance between a safe solitude Without pushing away all of those I love Clutching onto anything that distracts me from my misery Anything that can suppress the constant urge to kill myself I keep building fences to seclude myself I'm too ashamed to admit that I need help Still carrying the weight of this heartache Buried within me Too afraid to let you go and substantiate the fact that without your love Then I am truly alone Too afraid to let you go Too afraid to be alone