Special Different

I'm special But I must admit There might be something missing Like the last puzzle piece I stick out like a sore thumb The harder the laughter So spare me your sarcasm Cos I don't understand it I'm special But only good in small doses Infantilised With a self-diagnosis Crashing hard because I can't mask or pretend to be normal So here I am a dancing monkey On my way to the circus Don't tell me to calm down I was born to stand out Special Different I'm special But I must admit I'm a car crash trainwreck That nobody can fix Why can't I just fit in Why can't I just sit still Born under punches my compulsions cnd depression creeping in I'm special Only good in small doses Infantilised With a self diagnosis clone again with no friends, I didn't mean to cause offence Diluted versions of myself cll these cracks, I've got to mend Don't tell me to calm down I was born to stand out cnd I know they'll call me special cnd I know they'll call me different But it's never spoken kindly When anybody says it Special Different Special Different Why can't I just fit in Why can't I just sit still Don't tell me to fit in Don't tell me to sit still Special Different Special Different