bleed

Just spent a little time away Contemplating everything Pondered how my vices serve my life Debating if I need them See I'm no saint but I'm no bum I just paint the inside of my cup and turn my mind into a brush 'till it flows like water Saturating my veins I don't bother staying all that sane I just need a drank I just need a smoke I just need a girl but I don't need these hoes I just need myself I don't need no help Stop texting my friends just to feel alone Let that feeling grow 'till it turns to song 'till it fills the hole I made in my heart Bleed Bleeding out so good Light headed as f*ck Soaking in this bathtub filled with emotion Popping a red pill and breathing in Breathe out and sinking in I see it all vividly It's so pretty and tragic I cry on this fabric I've worn for 5 days straight It's seen all my habits I play my keys and I sing my songs The crowd loves it give a round of a applause Just spent a little time alone Put my pieces in poem Tore it all apart to make puzzle Put it back together See if I can find a better line To describe the thoughts up in my mind See what wisdom I can find 'till it comes together See it on the page Read the letters Realize my fate I can't fill my plate Pile it up with love and sit down to sing Only space for one Only space for me Find myself in greed I want all the time for the things I seek I just wanna be everything I can Can't be losing limbs giving out my hand Bleed Bleeding out so good Light headed as f*ck Sleeping by a figure that I had known once Hit a few times before breathing in Breathe out and sinking in I feel it all vividly It's so pretty and tragic The marks on the fabric The paintings we made on a canvas of plastic Last nights been smeared by the next days sun We both loved it what a shame that I'm gone