Reflection

I been losin' my way, scared I'm losin' my faith All the people that know me just know the Lance that I fake I'm standin' in front of my mirror, starin' at all that I hate Not the man that I wanna be, but I won't ever take All the initiative I know I gotta have to make changes Eventually, I know I have to pay for my wages, but Right now, I just wanna stay in all of my cages Cause the feelin' is great and she gon' be here somewhere around 8:00 As soon as that's over, I go through all that I told ya's, man It's never worth it, in the moment, I get urges When she sendin' me pictures, threw a text and started flirtin I haven't seen her in months, she's tryna cope with her hurt Just broke up with the person that she shouldn't converse with But look at me talkin', I'm sittin' here doin' worse Somewhere in between all this, she blocked my number and skirted Right after I did everything, I could to see you in person Now I'm just talkin' to God Haven't heard any answers lately, but not even shocked I've been livin' so reckless, I don't feel worthy to talk I've been askin' forgiveness so much, I finally just stopped My actions said that I'm not, feel like I'm stuck in a box Stare at all of the clocks As I go through this life, I feel like my time's gonna stop The person that I wanna be is not me, I feel like he's locked Somewhere deep in between on my knees, I'm prayin I got a second chance comin' around, feel I let everyone down I've been doin' everything to keep my feet on the ground But I'm fallin', yeah, that can't wait for the sound Always tryna catch me slip, there when I turn around Yeah, know why Cause Lance don't go with the flow Plenty, people tell me things I already know Which really, honestly, gets under my skin the most Like you don't live what you preach And your life is a hoax Who said that you could Critique With all your skill home alone Sittin' in the nosebleeds and takin' pics from your phone Man, it's silly, but you know that it's really The world that we live in with all these open opinions Man, I don't get it Act like y'all own a percentage Y'all shouldn't have the privilege, yeah