Drowning Man

They try to destroy my faith. Attempt 2 decimate my decibels. Decrease my dedication. Depreciate appreciation. But I speak up! Even when they talk down on me. Never let them quiet my voice, I rejoice, make ordained noise. Ima fight this worldly reasoning every time. Nock them naysayers out my mind. Cause negative thoughts are a crime. I wont let them apprehend my thinking. They almost had me in hands of death. Imma struggle till there’s nothing left. Giving up I detest. Its hard to breathe but none the less A drowning man only needs 1 breath. They’ll try to destroy your faith Attempt 2 decimate your decibels. Decrease your dedication. Depreciate appreciation But speak up! Even when they talk down on u. The devil will have u Suicide by murder. Kill your relationship with Most High. When U feeling mostly low. Fruitages of spirit can save u from defeat, shod toes in readiness as u hold pants up with belt of truth. Nourished with best plate, breastplate of righteousness to keep heart right in wrong world of no justice. That hurls burning green missiles of Jealousy, extinguished by large shield of faith father gifted me inherently. What can compare 2 me when im living by Jahs perfect standards righteously. I was wanted by the law of Christ but felt law didn’t apply 2 me. There was brawl with my heart Christ law and me. So I nailed my former life to the stake and watch old personality dye in pain. It cried out why do u kill me mane? I replied, I was taught to deaden wicked desires. Cant stab myself over with many pains every Friday no Michael Myers. If tear drops were dollar bills, I would be swimming in riches every day. I’m surrounded by deceitful haters drenching me. But Imma struggle till there’s nothing left. Giving up I detest. Its hard to breathe but none the less. Remember. A drowning man only needs One breathe They tryTo destroy my faith Killing it softly with the little instruments To mentally block me Or at least try to block my integrity Or they sit and they watch me While I approach the door And the giggle and lock it Oh don’t they get tickled to watch then, And ask “hey, have you seen Next Friday”( no I haven’t, but I know what you’re getting at ) – calmly Though im feeling this often, To be a kingdom proclaimer and How my membership stops me. From being a living disclaimer. Cuz im gonna stand tall! Because the way I live isn’t a shame or Something to be embarrassed by, From the physical man or woman, Or looking at this in a physical manner, nah cuz to see this spiritually, Yall are in imminent danger, Satan’s got yall away from God’s family of brothers. Yall siblings are estranged or like literal strangers, My sentiments don’t sit within me I just cant. quit giving answers, To the questions you’re afraid to ask, Nah its time to get inquisitive today or Listen to what I say, grab your bible and get insistent to understand these standards. This hard pill to get is the short distance to grandeur the mission to enter the land of milk and honey and not almond milk and Splenda, this! Is why I tread water. Cuz im not about drown or stop speaking. Cuz woe is me it I don’t pound these streets preaching. To think about quitting now I might as well quit breathing. Wait, did you catch how that sounds did get the meaning? Cuz see I don’t wanna drown, cuz id quit breathing!! Woo! This is the truth I’ve found and its within me and. No need to keep seeking, I’m im solid ground in the mountain of the house of the one who gives me the reason. To keep swimming. So I don’t drown. One hand after the next, I keep reaching. It’s hard to breath nonetheless, a drowning man needs only one breath. So I keep breathing. Imma struggle till there’s nothing left. Giving up I detest. Its hard to breathe but none the less I’m drowning. man And it’s not even the haters and liars, Decriers whose lue is rooted in detracting From sincere effort to survive It’s that thing Jesus warned about in Matthew, That how can my life be Worth more than the Lilies in the fields And birds ignorantly Chirping about on concrete When I don’t even know When where or how my next Meal will be Hard not to focus on the Common anxieties When life filled with lack of opportunity Gut punches you again and again Makes you wanna vomit out conformity So that you can manage an attempt To get ahead Despair has reached a head The pressure got me thinking bout Side hustles and income streams That sure will take me At least partially Away from meetings But will be sure to guarantee These clothes on my back A roof above the cranium And a place to rest it I’m drowning In these day to day ambitions That have torn me away from family My wife mad at me Cuz I am forced to spend more time on Chat GPT in order to figure out Potential business strategy Than I do with her And it’s hard and sad That as a society We’ve been reduced to this where We’re no longer in a place To rub two nickels together Where ends will never meet cuz We’ve been placed on a never ending treadmill That I couldn’t seem to get off of Not at least until I remembered Where the source of my sustenance should be And I stopped worrying about these things That my God told me would be anxieties And tbh I’m no longer anxiously lurking around corners waiting for paydays That were never meant to be Instead I’ve learned to be content For whatever he provides me and she On the daily To destroy my faith. Killing it softly with the little instruments To mentally block me Or at least try to block my integrity Or they sit and they watch me While I approach the door And the giggle and lock it Oh don’t they get tickled to watch then, And ask “hey…have you seen Next Friday”. ( no I haven’t…but I know what you’re getting at ) – calmly Though im feeling this often To be a kingdom proclaimer and How my membership stops me From being a living disclaimer Cuz im gonna stand tall! Because the way I live isnt a shame or Something to be embarrassed by From the physical man or woman Or looking at this in a physical manner, nah cuz to see this spiritually, Yall are in imminent danger Satan’s got yall away from God’s family of brothers. Yall siblings are estranged or like literal strangers My sentiments don’t sit within me I just cant. quit giving answers To the questions you’re afraid to ask Nah its time to get inquisitive today or Listen to what I say, grab your bible and get insistent to understand these standards. This hard pill to get is the short distance to grander