Cutting Myself

One time for the people that fake their love for me Two times cause the blood gives me company Three times cause everywhere I go people I don't even know always seem to run from me Four times for the friends that never call Five times cause they probably pray on my downfall Six times for the people like me who can't express themselves So they need to bleed The scars on my arm are starting to look like tally marks I'm taking a knife and cutting far Far into the skin color that started segregation Why is my happiness up for debation I've tried healing through creation But I still can't manage my frustration I have so much to say but I'm too afraid to say it Don't talk to me like you understand This is to much for one man I just do what I can I keep focusing on everyone's happiness but never my own Sometimes I forget I'm only skin and bone I have so many sins I can never atone That's probably why Im forever alone Look in my heart you won't see a soul I'll never be good enough to reach a goal There's three people I hate in this world and that's me myself and I I've been walking down the path of death just to find my end No matter what they tell me I feel like a bad friend I wonder if they'll think of me when I'm dead One time for the people that fake their love for me Two times cause the blood gives me company Three times cause everywhere I go people I don't even know always seem to run from me Four times for the friends that never call Five times cause they probably pray on my downfall Six times for the people like me who can't express themselves So they need to bleed My existence is worthless I've been looking for my life's purpose I'm depressed but seem happy on the surface It's obvious I'm a pointless person I got a few scars would that be something you'd want to see This I got from busting my knee And another is from how I fell out the swing But this one's from where I tried to kill my self cause I hate everything You only have skin to cut it If you feel like me here's a tip You'll never be happy so make sure everyone else doesn't feel like you did Yeah I know it's a weird trick Especially because no one cares if you die or live But it's your only option until you find out what your purpose is I'd like to see how you react When I play a track and hear me rap About how I feel trapped In the mind state I have And maybe it'll get me a plaque I'd like to see that I always get behind my keypad And pretend not to be mad I bet you love seeing me suffer Even if I do get a plaque I'll never get another You'll all know me as a one hit wonder It probably won't even do really high numbers I can't even get my life together I'm a bad friend and I'm someone nobody'll remember They'll all say I'm a good person but I've always felt lesser Forget it I'll kill myself you won't even get a letter If you feel like this I hope it gets better I'll create somewhere that you can belong in forever One time for the people that fake their love for me Two times cause the blood gives me company Three times cause everywhere I go people I don't even know always seem to run from me Four times for the friends that never call Five times cause they probably pray on my downfall Six times for the people like me who can't express themselves So they need to bleed