Fragile

Alright this is the last one you get I've spent all of my life not doing anything right I've spent all of my days questioning my ways Why does god give me this pain Everybody smiles but I can't do the same I think about how far that I came Only to realize absolutely nothing has changed I'm still the useless one nobody likes I don't talk about killing myself cause I just might There's something that's been keeping me up at night when I'm resting my head And that's that half of us with depression is to afraid to talk about it while the other half is Dead You say life is a movie but to us it's barely a clip We think about the society we don't fit in and look at the wrist that were slittin' And wonder why the pain is so addictin' We completely forget the people we care about Because to them we don't even exist but that's are self doubt I've felt this way so many times I can't count I'll never run out of sorrows there's an infinite amount I bet you think I fake depression just for the clout Somewhere down the road I took the wrong route Cause I shout my depression that I don't even know what's about My head is in the clouds I can't think straight If you feel the same I do, do we share the same fate That one day our demons show us to the gate Then we decide we wanna go back but it's already too late No matter where I go these thoughts keep finding me To most people I'm a freak to society I don't even fit in my friend group don't ask me why I have anxiety I don't have feelings like confidence and such Depression just blinds me to much I'm something that not even my skin wants to touch I'm fragile one touch I might break I don't understand why you talk to me for my sake Just don't claim that my life's a piece of cake If you saw my demons you'd be afraid look at all the songs i've made I never said I was happy who can relate There's a devil on my shoulder but you never see a god Every time I smile I'm a fraud I'm like the kid in the talent show nobody applaud I can't save myself so I try to save you Everyone belongs here no matter what you've been through And if your in pain I pray that it's over soon Whether if it's love or you hate what you are You can't let those demons tare you apart Find and repair the pieces of your heart As far as liking yourself I'm still trying to find the start I don't know if there's a reason or what But mentally I've been in a rut With an empty feeling in my gut I'm caged into depression I wanna be free Anxiety tells me what I need to be I know people who hurt themselves and that really gets to me Maybe I'm not as good of a friend as I thought I was Maybe they make me feel like that just because They know I need help and there to busy focusing on that than there self That's something I could never understand I try to care about others but I know I'm a selfish man I'm fragile one touch I might break I don't understand why you talk to me for my sake Just don't claim that my life's a piece of cake If you saw my demons you'd be afraid look at all the songs i've made I never said I was happy who can relate Stop crying and put up a fake face Fake everything until who you are is erased If you fail the gun is in the same place It was Last time you failed and wanted to start a case I'm buying all these glocks cause I'm afraid to die The crying never stops and now you know why