I Hate Everything

I Hate the fact you say I can't rap cause I'm white and not black Imma have to get the gat for my demons and fight them back I talk about my depression because growing up no one cared about that I hate the way you judge a human is by assuming That they're evil and not know what they're doing Even when I win it feels like i'm losing they say it's in my head It's very confusing I hate that I thought these demons could save me But there what made me so angry They make you wanna die from tearing you from the inside So I gotta murder a beat it's a homicide I hate it when you think that I'm fine when I constantly cry for help all the time I bet half of you are blind I mean why do you think that I rhyme I hate the cancerous disease that took my grandpa with ease Like a deer and headlights I freeze all you see is just wet faces It's hard to get through tight spaces I hate that I can only think about bad memories and all I could make were enemies I hate the people that never take their shot I hate that I don't even know if my friends like me or not I hate that you took 'pac even though he was a god I Hate Everything But more than anything I hate myself I just put it on everyone else to repel the feelings for oneself I hate that I can't explain how I feel cause when I say it it's real So I just seal it in me and pretend to be happy And completely forget what had me so unhappy I hate alcohol cause as I recall it tried to destroy my family And I didn't think I could get through it all You used to bring that home every night it just told me y'all were going to fight I just had to grab on to my hope and hold on tight It was the only thing that ever told me it be alright I hate that all my songs sound the same The memories repeat in my brain My demons play with my emotions like a game I'm tired of being alone that's why I reach out for fame So all of you could love my name I hate the stress I feel I'm just a mess I have no confidence in myself I think I'm about to have less I hate that I'm afraid of everything I look at the songs I've made And I think my mental health isn't a fair trade I hate the people that never take their shot I hate that I don't even know if my friends like me or not I hate that you took 'pac even though he was a god I Hate Everything But more than anything I hate myself I just put it on everyone else to repel the feelings for oneself