Letter To God

Dear god Are you even real There's support that I just don't feel They say with time all wounds heal But I got permanent damage so what is the deal I think I'm starting to lose my faith You never helped me on a bad day I didn't want it to go this way But I got a few things to say First things first Rest In Peace DMX He inspires others to be the best Remember the real ones and don't see the rest How you gonna take 'pac and leave us suge All your decisions leave me shook Think about all the lives that you took Are you doing this on purpose or do I got you miss understood I wanted to know if my grandpa would survive his cancer And because of you I learned the harder answer People wonder why I have so much built anger Why do gays have to burn just because there different I thought everyone belonged or is that just ignorance Why is heaven white and the devils black Are you promoting racism people die for that Where were you when I cried and needed somebody to listen Where were you when I wanted to make a visit It can't be that hard to answer these questions is it Why is it that you're never there when I call Why is it that you never pick me up when I fall Do you listen to my words or do they not matter at all I pretend to be happy when I'm not Friends are starting to spot What I feel it's all just a lot This is my letter to god They say not to question you but it's getting hard I've faced my demons but you haven't done your part Your decisions are blades and you got me scarred I wish I could change but I don't know how You tried putting demons in a friend that's something I won't allow I never needed your forgiveness and I don't need it now Remember when I asked you why I was alive And you sat in your chair and told me to die Then I pretend like everything is fine But how could I be when you tear my inside. Maybe it's not right for me to blame But it would be nice if you relieved my pain You didn't pay attention when my demons came And because of that I'll never trust you the same Maybe there's a reason That i must of missed That's fine I'll make out the abyss Then I'd do it again just show I'm not afraid of the risk I'll put the experience out on a disk And make it become on everyone's playlist I think about what you've done every time I rap I've been suffocating in your trap You've given me great friends I can thank you for that But I bet you're gonna take them away so I can never get them back Why is it that you're never there when I call Why is it that you never pick me up when I fall Do you listen to my words or do they not matter at all I pretend to be happy when I'm not Friends are starting to spot What I feel it's all just a lot This is my letter to god